October 21, 2012 at 11:47 PM (Family, Life, Photography)
Tags: birthday, Family, friends, Life, photography
In a time out at Grandma’s house
October 11, 2012 at 4:25 PM (Family, Life, movies)
Tags: Burn: One Year on the Front Line of the Battle to Save Detroit, Detroit, documentary, Family, Firefighters, friends, Home, Life, Los Angeles, movie premiere, movie trailer, movies, postaday
Please check out this trailer for a documentary called Burn: One Year on the Front Lines of the Battle to Save Detroit, made by two of my very talented friends. This film is very near and dear to my heart, not just because my friends made it but because it is about my home town. This is an amazing film that my own sister-in-law said was life-changing. If you live in the Los Angeles area, the film is premiering on October 29th at the Egyptian Theater in Hollywood. You can check out the Burn website to see if it will be screened in your area, if it is not, please donate to the film so it can reach more theaters across the country. And to my friends back home, Burn opens in Sterling Heights at the AMC Forum 30 on December 30th–so if you missed the Detroit Premiere, you can check it out then.
So please, help support my hometown and the heroes trying to save it.
October 2, 2012 at 7:49 PM (Family, Music)
Tags: Amy Gore & Her Valentines, Family, Fine Without You, Joey Brinker, music, Music Video, nephew
My nephew, Joey, and my sister-in-law are in this video. My nephew is the boy who throws the tip on the ground. The song is “Fine Without You” by Amy Gore & Her Valentines.
June 19, 2012 at 10:15 PM (Family, Life)
Tags: anniversary, death, Family, grandpa, Life, loss
Today is the 25th anniversary of a day that changed my life forever. I remember being at home in my bedroom, working on a birthday present for my grandfather. His birthday was the very next day–June 20th. Aside from my Dad, he was the most important man in my life. He was up north at the family cabin in Prudenville, Michigan. I was working hard on a picture that I would give to him when he returned.
At the time, I shared a bedroom with my sister who was listening to Elvis on the radio and I remember getting upset with her about something. I went to tell my Mom when the phone rang. It was my Aunt Sue. My Mom listened then she sat down on her bed and started to cry. My sister came into the room and sat down on the bed next to my Mom. It was obvious that something was wrong. My sister started to cry. She thought my Aunt was calling to tell us that our Grandmother had passed away. She had cancer and we all knew it was a matter of time before we would lose her.
I don’t remember exactly what was said but I do remember my mother being in shock and asking something like “how is Mom taking it?” So it wasn’t Grandma, then who was it?
No one ever expected my Grandfather to go first. He seemed way too stubborn. I was only nine and I thought he was invincible. So I didn’t understand it when my Mom tried to explain to us that he was gone. He was up at the cabin, working on the roof of the porch that he was putting on the cabin when he had a heart attack. My cousin and uncle were there. They called an ambulance but the nearest hospital was in West Branch, a good half an hour to 45 minutes away. Actually, my father was born in that hospital. And now I will always remember it as the place where the most important man in my life entered this world and where the other left this world.
I still remember being at the funeral home, seeing my Grandfather in his casket. I wore this blue and black dress that he bought me and I placed his birthday picture inside of the casket so he could take it with him. I remember the look on my grandmother’s face as she sat in her wheelchair staring at the love of her life. She would be joining him in exactly 11 months (to the day). I remember my Aunt Nancy hugging me and letting me cry in her arms. She too would be following my grandparents into the afterlife in a few short years.
Our lives and our family have changed so much over the last 25 years. My grandfather was always in the back of my mind. I would wonder what he thought about the choices I had made and if he was proud of me. And when I joined the Ladies Auxiliary at his VFW Post, I felt that he was. I actually felt him watching on the day of my induction. And it helped that some of the ladies who knew my grandparents were by my side. My grandfather was the post master and I spent a good chunk of my childhood playing in that VFW hall. My sister thinks it’s funny that I still won’t go in the kitchen. We were never allowed in there as kids and I still think he is going to yell at me if I go in there now. I still take the back entrance through the broom closet then through the bar then into the back of the kitchen. And I always look at his picture on the wall every time I step into the hall. That was his home away from home.
It still breaks my heart to think of all the years we didn’t get to spend with him and how many of my younger cousins don’t remember him or never even knew him. Like my father, I am doing my best to keep his legacy alive through my work with the military and the veterans–and through General Motors (he was an Engineer for GM and worked on the Mako Shark). He passed on his strength, beliefs and stubborness to my father who passed it on to me. I hope I have made him proud.
I still love and miss you. I will do my best to continue to honor you.
RIP Sylvester James Brinker (Aka Bob) 1925-1987
June 3, 2012 at 9:36 PM (Astrology, Life, Spirituality, Universe)
Tags: astrology, Dreams, Family, Fate, friends, Full Moon, Hot Dog, Independent, Life, Love, Moon, Pagan, quest for knowledge, Relationships, Religion, Sagittarius, Second Chances, soulmates, Spirituality, Universe
Tomorrow’s Full Moon is the Pathfinding Horse Moon. With the moon in Sagittarius, it is a time to choose a new path or direction to take in our life’s journey.
How do we do this? Well, you look at where you are and where you really want to be then you have to decide how to get there. Simple, right? I’m a Libra so I would have to say this is pure torture. Trying to make a decision on which path I should take is an extremely difficult task for a Libra. I will use my trusty Pros and Cons lists. I will think of all the different possible outcomes for each decision. I will ask my friends and family for advice. I will go see a psychic or ask my own Goddess or Angel cards. Then I will pray for a sign from the Universe, guiding me toward the right path. Then I will finally make a decision. But once I make that decision, I will constantly wonder if I made the right choice. But once again, I am a Libra.
Ironically, I am in a weird place where I do feel like I have to make a lot of life choices about my future. So today, I turned to someone I know and trust, Hot Dog. I had just told him about my accident a few days ago so he was anxious to see me and get me whatever I needed. He picked up dinner at my favorite Mexican restaurant and arrived at my house, ready to take care of my needs. What I really needed was someone to talk to and he was ready to listen. We went for a walk in my neighborhood (mainly to walk off the carnitas) and talked about what was bothering me. Like any close, good guy friend would do, he poked fun at some of the decisions I made and actions I took. But mostly he was in agreement with me that I needed to change things in my life.
I know where I want to be I just have no clue how to get there. I need to let go of the past once and for all. My past is holding me back. So I guess whatever direction I wind up choosing, I need to make sure that it is in the opposite direction of my past with the future I want directly in front of me.
Now, if you are like me and you have a hard time making decisions, Kristen Madden from Llewellyn’s Witches’ Datebook suggests:
“To explore your path and any new directions you might take, you will need a pendulum (a ring on a string will do), and your life-adventure map. Create your map by drawing a large circle on a piece of paper. divide the circle into a pie graph, with one section representing your current path. Into the other sections, place your potential paths, hopes and dreams. Take your pendulum and ask what paths are most aligned to financial, academic, spiritual, or emotional success, then let the pendulum help find your direction.”
Now if the pendulums, tarot cards and psychic guidance methods freak you out, you can always ask the Magic 8 ball. I have a fortune telling Yoda doll that I often ask for guidance (yeah, I’m a Star Wars geek) when my Magic 8 ball seems to be having issues (when it tells you “Future Unclear. Ask Again Later.”)
May 24, 2012 at 11:29 AM (Endometriosis, Life, Music, Relationships, Spirituality, Universe)
Tags: dark side, Endometriosis, Family, Fate, friends, Independent, Kelly Clarkson, Life, Love, music, quest for knowledge, Relationships, soulmates, soundtracks, Spirituality, Universe, videos
It seems appropriate that this video was just released. Right now, I am dealing with my own dark sides–Endo and Depression.
May 18, 2012 at 8:06 PM (Family, Life, Universe)
Tags: accidents, Family, Fate, friends, Independent, Life, Love, Relationships, soulmates, Universe
When tragedy strikes, it becomes very clear who really cares about you. I don’t have any actual family out here in California but on Wednesday, I learned I have a very large extended family.
On Wednesday, I was driving home in the 5pm bumper to bumper traffic. I was at a dead stop when I heard tires squeal behind me. I looked in my rearview mirror and had enough time to say “Oh Shit” before the car behind me plowed into my back end, lifting the back of my car into the air before slamming me down. I was in shock and I suddenly felt pains shooting through my neck. I had enough sense to pull over to the side. The 20 year old girl behind me had been texting and didn’t see me.
So we went through the accident protocol and I wound up at the local hospital with severe whiplash and other minor injuries. At first, I was in a panic. I am single. I live alone and my family is on the other side of the country. So I called my best friend from the ER. Then they took me back into a room where the cell reception was bad so I started to text my friends and co-workers. To my amazement, everyone rushed to help me in any way they could. My California sister showed up at the hospital to be with me (and to tease me about the nice new neck brace that I will be wearing for a week). She started contacting people for me and giving updates while I endured many tests.
Since I was released from the hospital and put on bed rest, I am unable to act like my usual independent self. So my friends and their families have stepped in, taking me to appointments, getting me groceries, taking care of my fur babies, and picking up my meds.
So it no longer feels right to simply call them my friends, they are my family. They have been there when I really needed them. And going through something like this, you really do see who truly cares about you and who doesn’t.
So to my “family,” Thank you for everything!!!!